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I don't know why, or what i am flaring at. I'm somehow at my limit. You said i don't reply. Yeah.. I did. I fking did reply. I replied i wanted you to enjoy the chalet with your friends. The friends who you have not seen for quite a period. See your inbox. And think. How you expect me to reply to the msg you sent. Huh? The same sentence? You wanted me to send the same reply to you?
I know we may have been at a little fault for not telling you. And i am feeling fking guilty about that. But what can we do? We DON'T want you to leave the chalet just for us. We DON'T want you to skip the fun with those people. We WANTED you to come back from chalet with a smiling face. We WANTED you to enjoy this chalet better since you said the previous one, which you had with us was horrible. Its not about the "purposely lie-ing". But its the consequences that we have been wondering about. You said it will be better to let you know, "Frankly, i don't mind if you all went without me." but how about what happened on the sunday night? Would you like to explain? You SAID you feel left-out. We OFFERED to wait for you at the coffee-shop till you arrive. You SAID you wanted to go the reservior. We OFFERED to go to the reservior to accompany you. We DON'T want you to be there alone since you said you were leftout. By then, i've made up my mind. I DON'T mind getting scoldings from my dad for being late. And what you did? You freaking turned us down. You think it would make us feel good to see you alone suffering huh? What are you trying to prove to us when you rejected us? Prove that we are not needed? Prove that we were a bunch of useless friends? Prove that our concern was not needed when you need them? Yes, this is the aftermath of what happened that night after you knew. We didn't want history to repeat itself.
You said im a fking liar huh? IM RATHER MORE FUCKED UP BY UR FUCKING ATTITUDE. Don't have the right to feel fucked up? Wanted you to feel sorry instead? What is this? I fking tell you what. I don't fking lie to a friend. You just don't know my fking restriction and stuffs, which you have said you do. I was fking waiting for the phone to be available that night. And even quarelled with my sis over that. You think its fun to go through this huh? You think im fking lie-ing for not calling you huh? Yes. I didn't msg you when you sent the sms last night. But see what? Check out the time man. Its fking 2:45. And again. ANOTHER GOD-DAMN RESTRICTION. Still accusing me for being a fking liar? I tell you what, i fking fulfill promises. Its just that you DON'T FKING BELIEVE ME. I believe, you don't even understand the thing about the fking BELIEVING. Yeah.. You said if you fking don't believe me, everything would be over. I TELL you what. Don't put words in my fking mouth, as if you know what would be going to happen. Thats not called believing. BELIEVING is something that you know that person would do something and you wait. But what happened? You actions proved me otherwise. I wrote all this, was to PROVE my point, that im not a FKING LIAR, and not to let you feel sorry for what happened.
You just don't talk to me about stuffs. Hate me if you want, hate me for your so called fking "liar". But think, why would i fking lie to you. Even IF there is such a need to, it would concern about your mood.
And you said you are dissapointed. Look around and think, just tell you when i feel bothered? Since when am i fking bothered by you? You never know how much of dissapointment i have in you, then you fking have in me.
Thats why i said last night, i have really nothing to say about your msg. You NEVER know how heavy the dissapointment that i have in you. Thats why i said, don't bothered to reply. Yes, in fact, its indeed stupid of how this things started. And yes, i agree with what angela said, we all contributed to what fking happened.
